Chaos in the New Year

Everyone always gets introspective when it comes to the new year. A lot of people make resolutions. I am resolute in that I will never make a resolution. In most cases people break their resolutions almost immediately, then spend the rest of year saying "Next year I'm gonna do it..." Aww bitch, you're not. So why resolve to be resolute? Phhffbbtt...

There are things I'd like to do. There are things I'm always working on doing. The things I'm always working on have to do with me on the inside. They're things that most people won't ever see, but I do because I live in my own skin 24 hours a day. Even on holidays! Wow! I work on my spiritual and hope that somewhere in there I learn enough shit to retain it and move ahead. The stuff I want to do are little things like drawing, writing, creating pieces of inspiration. Self expression mostly. I think perhaps that might even be helpful to the inner me. Outter me expressing the inner me makes a better me, you see?

I never said a 'saner ' me. That's relative anyway.

What was I like this time last year? Sad as shit. Heartbroken, dismayed and betrayed. How am I this time this year? Just peachy. Got a few more eye circles to show for it, but the head space is better. It's just a little sacrifice you know?

I can't resolve to do something that I really don't want to do. I can only resolve to go with the flow and change the flow according to my whim. Chaos is creation. Everything becomes created. I like to think of Chaos as a swirling mass. A tidal pool of inspiration just waiting to happen.

Let's go play in the pool.